Patience

Boy, patience has been a great thing for me the last couple of weeks. I was on pins and needles for my neighbor to have her sweet baby...then the stress of standardized tests....I think I am one big knot! However, now that we are getting through the first week of testing...the knot is slowly going away.
But then I am still sad....I am sad for my dad's best friend who is passing away from cancer, I am sad about a friend of mine who may be going through a miscarriage. When I think about the number of women who have miscarriages and don't deserve them....it irk's me. I guess even with blessings under your wing, you just never get over that loss. What gets me, my baby would have been 2 years old now. That is so sad to me, that this time is going by.

Anyways-just some thoughts tonight....

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thoughts

you know it is pretty funny when you post information on the computer how people read into what you say, and what you really mean. without a voice, the computer is really not your friend. it creates drama even without people realizing what is happening, what could be one persons view completely harmless and truthful can throw a wrench into anothers side without trying. for instance, a thought about children with downs syndrome....life and love is truly learned from a child with special needs. and downs is no exception. i have a friend that is going in today to have a baby with downs and we are all elated to have this little boy to join our lives. he hasn't even made his appearance and everyone has open arms waiting for his appearance. but once again, what may be one persons view is totally not another. it is so weird how views change and people change over time. what could be a safe place to share thoughts and feelings may not always be a safe place....or may be a bit unwelcoming...it is strange how things change for a while, then all is well in the end. Life is like that in many ways, God has you meet many different people in a lifetime,and he never gives you more than you can chew...it is mysterious. life in general is a prayer after another, a worry after another a tear shed after another....i guess things work out for a reason,and everything is in His hands....

7 months

Wow- Has time really flown by! I sit here and think about the time that has gone by since September 13th, and I wonder if I am missing anything?
Oh, how I wish I could feel the kick and the jabs again....but how I would never give up the firsts that are here. The first giggles, the first rolls, and the first time eating food....but if you blink an eye, the time goes by faster than you wish.

Now that the girls are here, I have so many fears now that my girls are here....I worry about what they do, I worry about working....oh how I wish I could be a stay at home mom....I hope I don't ever miss out.

Love has grown between us. Nothing is better than hearing the words mamma....although R. will think that Dada is even better. I can't wait to see the milestone that are yet to come. But at this point I love my peanuts, and can not imagine my life without them.