Counting Down

15 days to go! The girls are going to be here quicker than I think!
Am I ready? I guess as ready as I am going to be....

I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I know that I am ready to have the girls as I have been experiencing BH contractions daily now.

At the last appt. the girls were weighing in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. I can't believe how big they are!

Counting Down

There are so many feelings that I have right now. I have excitement...nervousness, and a sense of completion all at one time.
I am 15 days away from delivery of my little girls. They are going to be here quicker that I think. Last week at my appt. they measured in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. They are getting so big. I can tell the space is limited for them...and they continue to keep me awake at times.

I am ready to have them, but so nervous about the surgery. I just hope that everything goes well, and I hope that Rich is able to be with me for every step of surgery.

Speaking of Rich, I am so blessed to have him in my life, and these girls are going to be so blessed as well. I can't wait to see him with them. As for now, he has gone above and beyond any expectations that I could have had. He cleans, does all the laundry, and helps me get up and down. He helps with cooking, and continually makes sure I am comfy.

I hope these last few days, go by quickly and I find peace with the surgery and not have too much stress.

Counting Down

Ok...now I am counting down the days. As each minute passes, I am getting more anxious for the arrival of the girls. Yet, at the same time, I am nervous. I hope some of these feelings go away, and I can enjoy my time.

tomorrow, I go to the doc again, and will get a quick check to see what it going on. I have been having some BH contractions...and wonder if I will be able to go the next 15 days.

Rich has been so supportive, and has really stepped up to the plate. Cooking and Cleaning...he is doing more than I could ever ask for. I feel really blessed by him. Not only is he here for me, but I see the love in his heart for the arrivals of his girls.

September 11th will not come quick enough.....or so I say. I just continue to pray that the girls get bigger...and make it to the 37 weeks.

Sleep

I have decided that sleep is so over rated. I have always been a good sleeper, but 28 days until delivery, and I can hardly handle sleeping. I often wonder how it seems the girls can be so awake at these times o f the night when I should be in a sound somber, to only stay awake all hours of the night in hopes of getting a nap or two during the day.

One Year ago Today

Today has been a bittersweet day. One year ago today, I woke up and had spotting....should not be there, I was worried and scared all at the same time. I was starting my 12 week of pregnancy, the end of the scary road...I would be entering the 2nd trimester. I was so excited to be pregnant, and couldn't believe that I was traveling the road to parenthood....but the brown, pink/red was not normal.

By the afternoon, the doctor was able to get me in to see him. He tried the doppler, but nothing could be heard. He said he wasn't concerned with my tilted uterus, so he sent me for bloodwork, and then again on Saturday for bloodwork....and made the appointment to come back on Monday to go over results.

The weekend was a blur, there was a ton of blood and pain....there was tears shed by me every hour, minute, and second. Everyone kept saying everything will be ok...but deep down, I knew it was over.

Monday morning, I went to the doctor for a checkup and ultrasound to find nothing.....it was done. All 12 weeks were lost. I got my angel in heaven looking over me....

Today is a day that I sit and remember losing my angel...but find peace in my 2 gifts from God growing inside of me.