i worked so hard for this...and i am so proud!!! i worked to get the girls on a schedule. rocking and rocking to make sure they slept at the same time...and wa-la....they sleep and eat at the same time everyday. i love it!!! they wake up around 6:30 or 7:00 and then nap in the morning around 9:30-11:30 and then again 2:30-4:00 I love their schedule. then at 7:00 at night they go to bed and sleep all the way through the night. i love it!!!!

megan has been making me laugh. she is in awe of the ceiling fans....to the point of her just saying WOW and then whispers wow. i am so in awe of her.
hannah crack me up with her bwa-bwa...then rolling all around the room.....too fun!

the wind down and hidden

Have you ever been a shadow in the world? Sometimes I wonder if I am just a shadow living a life with my family in a small little box that many can not see in. I seem to be looking through a tunnel into others and i think...wow no one notices I am existing or gone. I lurk here and there and get over looked in many ways. It is weird and nice, all at the same time. It doesn't seem to matter where I am either. At anyrate the most exciting thing is going to happen next week....

the last day of school!!!!!! My "year" is winding down. I will get 8 glorious weeks with my girls! I can't wait. I have missed so many firsts....and now I will experience their new ones. I can't wait to see when the girls start crawling....I just need Megan to get over her ear infection. Right now she is peacefully sleeping even though she didn't really eat all day. My poor baby! At any rate, I am going to clean the house, and see if I can make a comeback and become part of the world, come into existance!

ahhhh....vacation

the way i see it, every weekend should be a 3 day weekend. i was so relaxed today at work and wanted to "just have fun" with the kids...too bad not every Monday was a day off, i would enjoy going to work again. well...i do enjoy work, I am just ready for a break....so now a treat before the real time off! woo-hoo.......

precious life

so i have been sitting here trying to find the words to say to my friend, and the prayers that could be handed to her. she lost her baby at 22 weeks. she held her in her arms for a few short hours and then had to say good bye just as quickly as she said hello. i am at a loss for words. i know what it is like to say goodbye to a baby you want so dearly and now may 22 will always be a memorable day for her. God wanted this baby to stay with him...he wasn't willing to give her up. is that something i understand? no can't say that i do...does it help me realize that your family is needed to bond with and to care for...my heart goes out to her...i wish i could gracefully put into words what I want to tell her...i wish i could take the hurt and the pain and turn it around for her. i just want her to know that she is well loved and that i am terribly sorry for her loss. i send her the warmest love and the biggest (((HUGS)))that can get to her through the wire.....
may you find comfort and healing in this trying time! may your son's smiles and coos help you through and find the strength to move forward. your strength and fight is admirable and your little girl will always know what a fabulous mom you are and you will forever be her hero for never giving up.

two in one night

Here are the loves of my life...

stress

you know you are stressed when you can not speak words clearly. with 14 days of school left, i am faced with a long list of tasks that need to be completed by certain days....OMG is all i can say or shout. I have a list of testing that needs to be completed. activities that i want to do, but no time. the minutes tick by so fast....just when the day gets started, then it ends...hopefully after tomorrow i can check off some of the tasks...i am so ready for my list to be complete! maybe my skin will clear up, and i can relax this summer. knowing that tc is not coming eases my mind as well....i love the reading project, but it is not working with our students. I am so glad that there is change a comin' it helps out so much to know that others are noticing that change is needed. i just need my break from work,so i can start fresh with new students that will be coming to my room in August.....

8 month bliss

i never thought that motherhood could be as amazing as it is now. the girls are so full of personality and a real joy to be with. they hardly cry and have put themselves on the most awesome schedule ever. i think many are jealous that my two are as good as they are, but, after a rough pregnancy what can i say? God has blessed me once again. not only with the gift to have these two, but to have such great girls. i know some probably criticize that i had to stop breastfeeding, as with two i got so overwhelmed....but i think that 1 week shy of 6 months was pretty darn good.

the girls are hitting milestones but are not crawling yet. scooting around the room...yes, crawling? no. but barrels of fun are they.

on a side note....how do you tell others that they are over reacting without really telling them that? i have been part of a couple of chat rooms that i don't want to leave as i have found the coolest people in the world...and i am building friendships, but at the same time wow drama that comes about is too much for me at times. i wonder if there is way to tell someone to chill out with out hurting feelings? on a computer is difficult....in person would be better, but i don't talk on the phone to these people. oh what to do!
oh well, i think i have rambled enough. i can tell i am being a procrastinator right now. don't want to clean. if i at least vaccuum while the girls are sleeping, it will be better!