Blind Date

As I sat here, I realized that I never posted about the time I met my husband.
I was working at a school teaching afternoon Kindergarten, when the learning director and I became pretty close friends. He was married, and has a beautiful family....anyways, after the weekends he would always wonder what I did, or if I was dating anybody at the time. Unfortunately I was dating here and there, but they were always the wrong dates, total loosers. So my learning director said that I need to meet his BIL....however he was away in Kansas at school. So I never thought anything about it, I said if he ever comes to town, I would. Well, another time we were talking and once again he brought up his BIL...and then gave a strange look and said, but he is in Italy working on his last project for his Senior year. But this Christmas he is supposed to be in the area. (well this was January) So, once again, I said OK...keep me in mind.
Well in 2001, christmas time was coming, and I got a phone call saying ok, we want you to come to our house on the 21st to go out with my BIL. I agreed....probably was not the best weekend, as I had just bought a house, and that was the day I was moving, but my parents agreed that it would be ok.
So I left....it was amazing...we went bowling and to coffee and walking around this town, which looks like a very old town. We had a blast. It was as though we had known eachother forever. I didn't want to leave his side, it was easy to talk Rich, and it was great to know that he and I had many of the same ideals/morals of life.
Well....I finally got home, and my dad was so mad that I was gone, he wouldn't talkt o me. That was hard, but my mom said there was something different about me after meeting Rich. I knew that too!
Well...Christmas night, I ended up going back out to the house for dinner and games. Once again, I had a blast and did not want to leave his side. At 3 in the morning, after everyone else was in bed and Rich needed to go to bed as he was leaving for Oregon the next day...we exchanged phone numbers and addresses and I left. Of course after the most magical kiss in the world. At that point I knew that I would marry him!

The next night I went out with my friends, and never even thought he would call for a few more days, but sure enough...I got the call and we talked on the phone for hours. That went on until February, when I invited myself up to house for the weekend...I just knew I had too! Well that blossomed into a wonderful relationship. We would see eachother every 6 weeks or so....and I spent the summer at his house---5 weeks!

AFter 2 years of a long distance relationship, Rich made his way to California at Christmas time, and surprised me with a job interview at a local architecture firm. He go the job and moved down to Ca. in Feb 2003. It was Valentines when he moved. On Feb. 16th...he took me to the coast for the weekend at a B&B.....it was there that he proposed...it was magical once again.....I found my fairy tale. We started planning the wedding, and in July 2004 we got married.

We have found that we are perfect for eachother, and help eachother in every way. We are ready to start our new endeavor by giving birth to these beautiful babies!

You never know what a blind date will bring!

TIME

I woke up this morning, and realized that time is going by fast...I have 6 weeks and 1 day until the girls will be here....is anything ready? Absolutely not!
I am getting slightly stressed out....the crib is not up, I only have 1 set of bedding, none of the clothes are washed, and I my baby shower is not until I am 34 weeks along....can we say cutting it close?

R. is being supportive, and I always feel so bad that I have to go to him to clean up, or vaccuum or dust, or wash clothes...but he works long hours, and needs to unwind as well....I know once they get here, things will be hectic but my goodness...I wish I could do more around the house.

I think what I will do is, make a list of things that I want done, and see if we can X them out as they get done.....

Where has the time gone?

update on the twins!

Today was the 30 week check up. One girl is now head down and the other is head up, which is ok since I will be having a C-section. Hannah is head down, she is 3 pounds 4 ounces and gaining like the wind. She is measuring 29 weeks 6 days, and doing all her practice breathing. So that is a relief.

Megan is breech. She is actually sitting on Hannah's head....silly girl! She weighs 3 punds 7 ounces, and is measuring 30 weeks 2 days. They have been 3 days apart since the beginning of the pregnancy.

I have a tentative week of delivery, which will be either September 11 or 12....so 7 weeks and counting!!!

Thirty Weeks

This is unbelievable to me...thirty weeks and a healthy pregnancy...too bad I couldn't enjoy it more than I did. I have been a nervous wreck through out this pregnancy even when I could feel both girls moving about and going crazy.... We are now on the countdown to the end. Six or Seven weeks remain, and then they will be here. It is so exciting, but at the same time, I am nervous. I question myself on being a mom. Yes, I worked in daycare for many years and continue to work with kids in a classroom....but I still have reservations about my decisions. I guess I will sit down on this rollercoaster and hold on tight.

I am experiencing many discomforts...along with insomnia. As I sit here yawning and wondering why I can't seem to sleep in bed....I miss my bed.....can't wait until I can move back in to the room. The recliner/couch has been a great friend, but I am ready for my bed.

My other didcomfort is.....heartburn....I take prilosec and eat tums like candy, and yet still suffer....ugh!

I try not to complain, but at times, need to get it off my chest! My next post will be upbeat, as tomorrow is my 30 week check up and ultrasound, and will have more news to share......

Looking back

It is always amazing to me, when you stop and look back on your life how you have changed or grown in some way or another.

As we are quickly approaching August, I remember 1 year ago when I had a miscarriage.....I thought my world was ending, the thought of losing a life was devastating to me. I blamed myself in every way possible....I thought my trip to New York was the problem....then I thought, I wasn't eating properly, then I thought that my body just rejects a new life growing inside.

My life was many shades of gray for months....I finally went to my church to ask for prayer and guidance. I spoke with the pastor who married R. and I and he was very insightful. He shed a new light on me....he said that God provides for you life in ways unexpected. God wanted you to be a mom...therefore he granted you the chance the get pg. God also wanted that baby to be with him. That baby was not ready for life on earth, and needed to stay in his house, happy and eternally young. You will always have an angel to watch over you, and keep you safe. God will not provide you with anything that you can not handle...and that baby he knew was not going to do well in the human world.

It took some pondering on his words, and then it began to give me comfort, knowing that there is an angel looking over me, and when my time is done on this great earth, my angel will be waiting for me with his arms wide open.

As I continue to look at my experiences and thoughts, I realize that as traumatic and awful of an experience the miscarriage was, I learned a lot about myself, and I was able to grow a stronger relationship with my husband. I realized that had I not experienced that, I would not have realized that I am emotionally strong, and able to share my story with others.
I have a built confidence that no matter what life brings my way, I will be able to work through it.
A few years ago....I don't think I could have, but now I know I can. I can thank those close to me for all the support and love that they shared with me....but most of all I thank myself, for opening my eyes and looking inside to see what matters to me, for realizing that I matter and make differences in my life through everything I do.

Friends

Friendship is a touchy subject with people. Some believe, for a person to be considered a friend, you must be able to see them or hang out with them in a local shop or restaurant. They feel that if you don't then they are just a name, or a person that has no meaning to you.

Life is funny, and God will provide a friendship in a way that has never been thought of. Impractical or even surreal....I have found that going online has been a great source of friendship. Going through a loss of a baby, and losing a child brings women and husbands and wives together in ways, that nobody ever thought could happen.

I belong to a chat group where we are all in different stages of trying to conceive, pregnant or suffering from a multitude of losses, and yet....I find that I call them "friends."

These are women who understand my feelings, offer advice, and just make me smile when I feel down. They are always there with a shout out, a smiling face, or in need of a hug themselves.....It is funny how nearly a year has gone by and I have many friends across the country....that I know if travelling I could call and meet up for lunch, coffee or just to hang out. I may or may not ever meet these women in real life, but for now, I cherish the friendship that has come out of it....I cherish the minutes a day, that I can worry and get some moral support. for that I am thankful...and I know that I will have a lifetime of friends to turn to.....

Moanday once again!

Why is it that everyone looks forward to Friday, for only another Moanday to make her presence and put a damper on a brand new day?

Being on bedrest, I love the weekends when I can spend time with Rich....but then Monday has to show up so quickly....and that time is over for 5 full days. I want to propose a 3 day weekend and a 4 day workday....wouldn't that be great? I want either Monday's or Wednesday's off...since Wednesdays seem to drag on forever!!!

Anyways-
Today, I am tired...didn't sleep well last night for some reason. I think it is the reflux that I am experiencing with this pg.

In other news....Donald Trump just bought land here in the fresNO....to build a PGA golf course that got started last year, but ran out of money. Now Trump is the only man whom I feel will get the project done...the problem???? LOCATION!!!! The golf course is getting built in the worst area of town....lots of drugs and prostitutes...it will be interesting to see what happens in the coming weeks.

Random Thoughts

Yesterday was a rough day for me....everytime I stood up I felt dizzy...it was so weird, I called the dr. and she said that it was pretty normal especially when the twins are going through a growth spurt and I can't seem to get enough to eat....like today.

I did go to the movies....I saw the move Evening....it was so good....but deep. I knew it was going to be emotional but didn't think I would cry through the 2nd half. I would recommend to anyone who has a bosom friend, and mom who you think the world of....and believe in love. Just take tissue with you!

Also, I think in a former life...I was a chef...I enjoy cooking so much and Rachel Ray is one of my favs....I tried a new recipe tonight....it was Turkey Cutlet Parmesean with tomato, basil and fresh mozzerella topping...YUMM-O is all I can say.....can't wait for lunch time tomorrow to finish it off!

Well....I'll be back tomorrow.....

This was too fun! Thanks pinkmorning for the idea!

ME in One Word1. Where is your cell phone? on my table2. Relationship? married3. Your hair? needs color badly4. Work? teacher5. Your sister? getting closer now that I am pregnant6. Your favorite thing? hubby7. Your dream last night? I can't remember?. Your favorite drink? icedtea sweetend9. Your dream car? 1965 mustang10. The room you’re in? living room11. Your shoes? shoes don't fit my feet right now12. Your fears? loosing a child13. What do you want to be in 10 years? world's best mom14. Who did you hang out with this weekend? my wonderful hubby15. What are you not good at? writing all my feelings down without sounding childish16. Muffin? blueberry17. One of your wish list items? to be a stay at home mom, but need to pay the bills one way or another18. Where you grew up? Arvada Co.19. Last thing you did? took a 3 hour nap20. What are you wearing? my pj's21. What aren’t you wearing? jewelry and shoes22. Your pet? kitties23. Your computer? Dell laptop24. Your life? wonderful, full of surprises25. Your mood? happy and content26. Missing? friends27. What are you thinking about right now? my upcoming surgery28. Your car? Honda CRV29. Your kitchen? a little small30. Your summer? uncofortably hot!!!31. Your favorite color? Green32. Last time you laughed? this morning with a tv show33. Last time you cried? I can't remember....very emotional right now34. School? would love to go back and get my masters. Love? Richard. Name? Stephanie (I added this, i realized a few may not even know my name :))

Anniversary

Yesterdaywas our 3rd anniversary. We has so much fun! We went on a date to the movies and dinner. We saw the movie Ratatouille. It was so cute! It was a movie that taught life lessons rather than giving you tons of humor.

After the movie we treated ourselves to dinner at Dai Bai Dang....a chinese food restaurant that rocks. Of course from the spice, it made the twins jump around and do the jig...but it sure tasted good.

I feel as though I am the luckiest girl because I have Rich in my life. He is so caring and understanding of me. I still have to pinch myself to make sure that I am not dreaming.
The other day, he came home out of the blue with flowers, just because, and he is taking time to pick up the slack around the house as I can not clean and do to much.

I pray everyday for us and our happiness, and I pray for our daughters. So far so good....I can't wait to meet them!

Getting Started

I have been inspired by acquaintances to get started on blogging. They always have great stories and pictures to share....as my life is getting ready to change in the upcoming weeks, I thought I would find a way to share my feelings and thoughts with my friends.

Today is my 3rd Anniversary. Yes, three wonderful years have gone by and quickly at that. It is hard to imagine how quickly time does go by. These three years have been so great. We have travelled...laughed...lost....and getting ready to gain two wonderful daughters.

Twins.....amazing how God works in your life. He truly provides in a way that blows your mind. After my miscarriage, I felt that I was lost and was a failure to be a mom, then six months later, we are blessed with two girls on their way. I am emotionally stable at this point in time...but know that there is going to be a crazy loops on the rollercoaster of life. I will have to sit back, hold on, and prepare for the challenges and rewards that being a parent and partnership with my husband will be.