It seems as though we got ready for babies' first Christmas, and it went by with such a blur. The girls loved it, and now, there are shreads of paper that need to be vaccuumed up...to finish up the Christmas cheer.
Santa came in good fashion. He brought a choo-choo train for the girls to share, with cute zoo animals on it. They love the songs and flashing lights. Songs of Santa Claus is coming to town made the girls squeal in delight, and the pictures too. It was so fun to see the smiles and hear the giggles. I can't wait until the girls are older, of course next year will be bows, boxes and ribbon will be the hit!
Santa was very good to me. I love to cook...and Rachel Ray is one of my favs...Santa brought me the Rachel Ray Furo knife set and the stainless steel cooking set. BEAUTIFUL!!!!
We are now ready to welcome the new year, and I will welcome going back to work (joy) I wish I could be a Stay at Home Mom...but we have to make ends meet at some point. We get by for now, but will have trouble in the future if I don't go back to work soon.
The girls are happy and healthy, they brought delight to my 2007, making it one of the best years of my life!
I will work on downloading pictures of Christmas...for now I will relive the memories and the smiles.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Cookies
You know it is Christmas when in my home you can smell the tree, and an underlying tone of Chocolate. I love baking for Christmas....mmm....I love to share. This year, is the year of many cookies and candies. I hope that everything turns out!
Rich is going to be in charge of the rice Krispie treats....and I will just make the cookies. Looking forward to my parents being here for the girls first Christmas! It will be a ton of fun.
Rich is going to be in charge of the rice Krispie treats....and I will just make the cookies. Looking forward to my parents being here for the girls first Christmas! It will be a ton of fun.
Monday, December 17, 2007
Three Months
Wow-
The girls are now three months old. I can't believe how quickly time is going by! They are growing so fast, and learning so many things each day. They took their pics this last Sat. I had to share them with you all....
The girls are now three months old. I can't believe how quickly time is going by! They are growing so fast, and learning so many things each day. They took their pics this last Sat. I had to share them with you all....
Friday, December 14, 2007
Sleeping through the night
I never thought the day would come. Last night, we went about our normal routine, just a little later than normal. We gave the girls their bottles, followed by a bath. Then at 10:00 the girls were put in their cribs. About 10 minutes later, they both needed their binkies to be placed in their mouths. Then at 11:00 I crawled into bed. The next think I know is I hear my hubby getting ready for work, eating his cereal....it is 6:30 in the morning, I ran to the girls room. All was well they were snoring.
I got up and made some Tea, and checked my email. Then at 7:30 I hear "talking" coming from the nursery....10 hours of sleep!
a WOMAN CAN GET USED TO THIS SORT OF THING!
I got up and made some Tea, and checked my email. Then at 7:30 I hear "talking" coming from the nursery....10 hours of sleep!
a WOMAN CAN GET USED TO THIS SORT OF THING!
Thursday, December 13, 2007
3 months
Today, the girls turned 3 months old. It is amazing how quickly time flies once your Little ones are born. The girls are my pride and joy. They are growing so much, and learning something new everyday. They are smiling more, and have learned what their hands are. They are beginning to soothe themselves in the middle of the night, finding their index finger or thumb to help them out.
I am starting to get sleep again, too. It is very hard not to wake up and wonder if everything is ok, then one will cough or rustle in her bed to make me feel better.
Now we are patiently waiting for Christmas. Our tree is decorated, the house is lined in lights. We have gone to see Santa at the local mall, and we got to even eat breakfast with Santa as well.
It is the most wonderful time of the year, and now is even better that I have my girls in my life. I needed them, and they needed me. They are angels in everyway. I am blessed each day when I see them smile, hear them cry, and even change those diapers.
I am starting to get sleep again, too. It is very hard not to wake up and wonder if everything is ok, then one will cough or rustle in her bed to make me feel better.
Now we are patiently waiting for Christmas. Our tree is decorated, the house is lined in lights. We have gone to see Santa at the local mall, and we got to even eat breakfast with Santa as well.
It is the most wonderful time of the year, and now is even better that I have my girls in my life. I needed them, and they needed me. They are angels in everyway. I am blessed each day when I see them smile, hear them cry, and even change those diapers.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Thanksgiving
As Thanksgiving nears us in a couple of days, we look at each day and ponder what are we most thankful for. 2007 brought many joys and tears, but what I am most thankful for is my twins. They were brought into the world safely and healthy. They bring so much joy to me and Rich. It amazes me that these little being could bring as much joy as they do. What blessings do you all have?
Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours!
Happy Thanksgiving from my family to yours!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Many Blessings
Sometimes when you read a story, or see a newsclip or hear of others struggles, pains and triumphs you learn alot about life, and everything it has to offer. Recently, I was introduced to a young girl who fought a hard battle, and recieved angel wings. Although I never met her in person, I found that she had an angelic heart and had a quality of faith, that I hope to pass on to my children.
In the very end with her family surrounding, she said there were tons of kitties and puppies running around. She was heading to her happy place where she would no longer be in pain, but yet be eternally young to watch over all those whom she loved and loved her in return.
It amazes me how God or a greater being, will guide you and give you strength in ways that you would never gain by yourself.
As the holidays approach, I realize that 2007 was a year of many blessings. It started back on January 18th when I took the 9th home pregnancy test and confirmed that indeed I was pregnant. Although cautiously happy due to the fact that 4 months prior I had a miscarriage, I began a long journey to parenthood. I went to the first dr. appointment, and everything was measuring right on track, and Dr. B said that I could have an early ultrasound. I was so elated, and yet nervous. So February 22nd came and off to the ultrasound clinic I went....wow what a double blessing that would be....we found out it was twins.
March rolled in, 12 weeks into the pregnancy, and boom...problem! I had bleeding and cramping...oh no, my worst fear. (I head into a specialist who became the best doctor in the world! She is the one who saw me through the rest of the pregnancy and delivered my precious girls.) At the ultrasound that day, we see two healthy babies! I was shaking and crying in happiness. But then, I was pulled out of work. The rest of the pregnancy though went on without any glitches.
September 13th, brought on even more blessings as it was the birthday.
2007 brings those blessings that make me happy. Not only my wonderful husband, family and life, but my girls whom bring the most joy in my life.
Happy Thanksgiving, and may those blessings close to you bring you as much happiness as I have.
In the very end with her family surrounding, she said there were tons of kitties and puppies running around. She was heading to her happy place where she would no longer be in pain, but yet be eternally young to watch over all those whom she loved and loved her in return.
It amazes me how God or a greater being, will guide you and give you strength in ways that you would never gain by yourself.
As the holidays approach, I realize that 2007 was a year of many blessings. It started back on January 18th when I took the 9th home pregnancy test and confirmed that indeed I was pregnant. Although cautiously happy due to the fact that 4 months prior I had a miscarriage, I began a long journey to parenthood. I went to the first dr. appointment, and everything was measuring right on track, and Dr. B said that I could have an early ultrasound. I was so elated, and yet nervous. So February 22nd came and off to the ultrasound clinic I went....wow what a double blessing that would be....we found out it was twins.
March rolled in, 12 weeks into the pregnancy, and boom...problem! I had bleeding and cramping...oh no, my worst fear. (I head into a specialist who became the best doctor in the world! She is the one who saw me through the rest of the pregnancy and delivered my precious girls.) At the ultrasound that day, we see two healthy babies! I was shaking and crying in happiness. But then, I was pulled out of work. The rest of the pregnancy though went on without any glitches.
September 13th, brought on even more blessings as it was the birthday.
2007 brings those blessings that make me happy. Not only my wonderful husband, family and life, but my girls whom bring the most joy in my life.
Happy Thanksgiving, and may those blessings close to you bring you as much happiness as I have.
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Two Months!
Ok...so the girls are now two months old. Where has the time gone???
We had our doctor's appt. yesterday, and Hannah weighs 9 pounds 5 ounces and is 23 1/4 inches long.
Megan weighs 8 pounds 14 ounces and is 21 1/2 inches long.
They got their shots, and did really well. Minimal tears and stopped when I picked them up along with their auntie!
They are really showing their personalities, smiling and all. They also are letting us know in a very loud way when they are hungry or have messy pants. Everyday, they are trying to talk to us too. Their little mouths just a moving, and trying to get sounds out.
I love them to death...and couldn't imagine not having 2 at one time.
We had our doctor's appt. yesterday, and Hannah weighs 9 pounds 5 ounces and is 23 1/4 inches long.
Megan weighs 8 pounds 14 ounces and is 21 1/2 inches long.
They got their shots, and did really well. Minimal tears and stopped when I picked them up along with their auntie!
They are really showing their personalities, smiling and all. They also are letting us know in a very loud way when they are hungry or have messy pants. Everyday, they are trying to talk to us too. Their little mouths just a moving, and trying to get sounds out.
I love them to death...and couldn't imagine not having 2 at one time.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Scattergories
i am stealing this idea from Julie. Thank you! This was fun to play, I love word games. i am tagging everyone that reads this...answer the following questions with the letter that your first name begins with.
What is your name? Stephanie
4 Letter word: Star
Vehicle: Saturn
TV Show: star search
City: Sacremento
Boy Name: steven
Girl Name: sarah
Drink: spritzer
Occupation: songwriter
Movie: Sleepless in Seattle
Popular Band: Steve Miller
Something you wear: Sweater
Celebrity: ???? I am drawing a blank.....stevie wonder?
Food: startburst
Something found in a bathroom: spa
Reason for being late: slept in
Something you shout: shoot
What is your name? Stephanie
4 Letter word: Star
Vehicle: Saturn
TV Show: star search
City: Sacremento
Boy Name: steven
Girl Name: sarah
Drink: spritzer
Occupation: songwriter
Movie: Sleepless in Seattle
Popular Band: Steve Miller
Something you wear: Sweater
Celebrity: ???? I am drawing a blank.....stevie wonder?
Food: startburst
Something found in a bathroom: spa
Reason for being late: slept in
Something you shout: shoot
Monday, October 29, 2007
Vaccuum
I have a dyson already....and am absolutely in love with it. We are going to need a new one soon, as we have almost worn ours out. We use it daily...sometimes 2-3 times a day. But still love it!
It is totally worth trying to win.....check it out!
Monday, October 22, 2007
Weekend
What a long weekend...I think I spoke up too soon about the girls sleeping so well. Saturday and Sunday were hard nights for the girls...but we survived, and mom will need to learn to take naps more when the girls doze off!
Thursday, October 18, 2007
sleep
sleep is getting better now that I am not pregnant. Unfortunately, every grunt and coo that I hear makes me jump up to think that something is wrong. Of course, as I run into the babies' room I see that the girls are laying side by side, sound asleep, I think they are talking to eachother, planning when they should wake up to eat and what not.
I love being a mommy...it is still amazing to see 2 girls, 2 cribs, 2 swings, 2 bouncy chairs.....two....unbelievable!
I love being a mommy...it is still amazing to see 2 girls, 2 cribs, 2 swings, 2 bouncy chairs.....two....unbelievable!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Mother Hood
Wow-
It has been so long since I have been on my blog spot to post an update. What can I say.....I have been blessed with 2 wonderful daughters that are getting bigger by the minute each day. My life is now complete that my girls have made their appearance in the world. The girls were born on September 13th. They came out screaming...and have calmed down and are wonderful children.
right now they are sleeping, after a restless night. I hope they stay asleep for a little while.
I hope to update the page more often as my life doesn't seem as crazy as it was.
It has been so long since I have been on my blog spot to post an update. What can I say.....I have been blessed with 2 wonderful daughters that are getting bigger by the minute each day. My life is now complete that my girls have made their appearance in the world. The girls were born on September 13th. They came out screaming...and have calmed down and are wonderful children.
right now they are sleeping, after a restless night. I hope they stay asleep for a little while.
I hope to update the page more often as my life doesn't seem as crazy as it was.
Monday, August 27, 2007
Counting Down
15 days to go! The girls are going to be here quicker than I think!
Am I ready? I guess as ready as I am going to be....
I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I know that I am ready to have the girls as I have been experiencing BH contractions daily now.
At the last appt. the girls were weighing in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. I can't believe how big they are!
Am I ready? I guess as ready as I am going to be....
I am excited and nervous all at the same time. I know that I am ready to have the girls as I have been experiencing BH contractions daily now.
At the last appt. the girls were weighing in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. I can't believe how big they are!
Counting Down
There are so many feelings that I have right now. I have excitement...nervousness, and a sense of completion all at one time.
I am 15 days away from delivery of my little girls. They are going to be here quicker that I think. Last week at my appt. they measured in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. They are getting so big. I can tell the space is limited for them...and they continue to keep me awake at times.
I am ready to have them, but so nervous about the surgery. I just hope that everything goes well, and I hope that Rich is able to be with me for every step of surgery.
Speaking of Rich, I am so blessed to have him in my life, and these girls are going to be so blessed as well. I can't wait to see him with them. As for now, he has gone above and beyond any expectations that I could have had. He cleans, does all the laundry, and helps me get up and down. He helps with cooking, and continually makes sure I am comfy.
I hope these last few days, go by quickly and I find peace with the surgery and not have too much stress.
I am 15 days away from delivery of my little girls. They are going to be here quicker that I think. Last week at my appt. they measured in at 4 pounds 12 ounces and 4 pounds8 ounces. They are getting so big. I can tell the space is limited for them...and they continue to keep me awake at times.
I am ready to have them, but so nervous about the surgery. I just hope that everything goes well, and I hope that Rich is able to be with me for every step of surgery.
Speaking of Rich, I am so blessed to have him in my life, and these girls are going to be so blessed as well. I can't wait to see him with them. As for now, he has gone above and beyond any expectations that I could have had. He cleans, does all the laundry, and helps me get up and down. He helps with cooking, and continually makes sure I am comfy.
I hope these last few days, go by quickly and I find peace with the surgery and not have too much stress.
Counting Down
Ok...now I am counting down the days. As each minute passes, I am getting more anxious for the arrival of the girls. Yet, at the same time, I am nervous. I hope some of these feelings go away, and I can enjoy my time.
tomorrow, I go to the doc again, and will get a quick check to see what it going on. I have been having some BH contractions...and wonder if I will be able to go the next 15 days.
Rich has been so supportive, and has really stepped up to the plate. Cooking and Cleaning...he is doing more than I could ever ask for. I feel really blessed by him. Not only is he here for me, but I see the love in his heart for the arrivals of his girls.
September 11th will not come quick enough.....or so I say. I just continue to pray that the girls get bigger...and make it to the 37 weeks.
tomorrow, I go to the doc again, and will get a quick check to see what it going on. I have been having some BH contractions...and wonder if I will be able to go the next 15 days.
Rich has been so supportive, and has really stepped up to the plate. Cooking and Cleaning...he is doing more than I could ever ask for. I feel really blessed by him. Not only is he here for me, but I see the love in his heart for the arrivals of his girls.
September 11th will not come quick enough.....or so I say. I just continue to pray that the girls get bigger...and make it to the 37 weeks.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Sleep
I have decided that sleep is so over rated. I have always been a good sleeper, but 28 days until delivery, and I can hardly handle sleeping. I often wonder how it seems the girls can be so awake at these times o f the night when I should be in a sound somber, to only stay awake all hours of the night in hopes of getting a nap or two during the day.
Thursday, August 9, 2007
One Year ago Today
Today has been a bittersweet day. One year ago today, I woke up and had spotting....should not be there, I was worried and scared all at the same time. I was starting my 12 week of pregnancy, the end of the scary road...I would be entering the 2nd trimester. I was so excited to be pregnant, and couldn't believe that I was traveling the road to parenthood....but the brown, pink/red was not normal.
By the afternoon, the doctor was able to get me in to see him. He tried the doppler, but nothing could be heard. He said he wasn't concerned with my tilted uterus, so he sent me for bloodwork, and then again on Saturday for bloodwork....and made the appointment to come back on Monday to go over results.
The weekend was a blur, there was a ton of blood and pain....there was tears shed by me every hour, minute, and second. Everyone kept saying everything will be ok...but deep down, I knew it was over.
Monday morning, I went to the doctor for a checkup and ultrasound to find nothing.....it was done. All 12 weeks were lost. I got my angel in heaven looking over me....
Today is a day that I sit and remember losing my angel...but find peace in my 2 gifts from God growing inside of me.
By the afternoon, the doctor was able to get me in to see him. He tried the doppler, but nothing could be heard. He said he wasn't concerned with my tilted uterus, so he sent me for bloodwork, and then again on Saturday for bloodwork....and made the appointment to come back on Monday to go over results.
The weekend was a blur, there was a ton of blood and pain....there was tears shed by me every hour, minute, and second. Everyone kept saying everything will be ok...but deep down, I knew it was over.
Monday morning, I went to the doctor for a checkup and ultrasound to find nothing.....it was done. All 12 weeks were lost. I got my angel in heaven looking over me....
Today is a day that I sit and remember losing my angel...but find peace in my 2 gifts from God growing inside of me.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Blind Date
As I sat here, I realized that I never posted about the time I met my husband.
I was working at a school teaching afternoon Kindergarten, when the learning director and I became pretty close friends. He was married, and has a beautiful family....anyways, after the weekends he would always wonder what I did, or if I was dating anybody at the time. Unfortunately I was dating here and there, but they were always the wrong dates, total loosers. So my learning director said that I need to meet his BIL....however he was away in Kansas at school. So I never thought anything about it, I said if he ever comes to town, I would. Well, another time we were talking and once again he brought up his BIL...and then gave a strange look and said, but he is in Italy working on his last project for his Senior year. But this Christmas he is supposed to be in the area. (well this was January) So, once again, I said OK...keep me in mind.
Well in 2001, christmas time was coming, and I got a phone call saying ok, we want you to come to our house on the 21st to go out with my BIL. I agreed....probably was not the best weekend, as I had just bought a house, and that was the day I was moving, but my parents agreed that it would be ok.
So I left....it was amazing...we went bowling and to coffee and walking around this town, which looks like a very old town. We had a blast. It was as though we had known eachother forever. I didn't want to leave his side, it was easy to talk Rich, and it was great to know that he and I had many of the same ideals/morals of life.
Well....I finally got home, and my dad was so mad that I was gone, he wouldn't talkt o me. That was hard, but my mom said there was something different about me after meeting Rich. I knew that too!
Well...Christmas night, I ended up going back out to the house for dinner and games. Once again, I had a blast and did not want to leave his side. At 3 in the morning, after everyone else was in bed and Rich needed to go to bed as he was leaving for Oregon the next day...we exchanged phone numbers and addresses and I left. Of course after the most magical kiss in the world. At that point I knew that I would marry him!
The next night I went out with my friends, and never even thought he would call for a few more days, but sure enough...I got the call and we talked on the phone for hours. That went on until February, when I invited myself up to house for the weekend...I just knew I had too! Well that blossomed into a wonderful relationship. We would see eachother every 6 weeks or so....and I spent the summer at his house---5 weeks!
AFter 2 years of a long distance relationship, Rich made his way to California at Christmas time, and surprised me with a job interview at a local architecture firm. He go the job and moved down to Ca. in Feb 2003. It was Valentines when he moved. On Feb. 16th...he took me to the coast for the weekend at a B&B.....it was there that he proposed...it was magical once again.....I found my fairy tale. We started planning the wedding, and in July 2004 we got married.
We have found that we are perfect for eachother, and help eachother in every way. We are ready to start our new endeavor by giving birth to these beautiful babies!
You never know what a blind date will bring!
I was working at a school teaching afternoon Kindergarten, when the learning director and I became pretty close friends. He was married, and has a beautiful family....anyways, after the weekends he would always wonder what I did, or if I was dating anybody at the time. Unfortunately I was dating here and there, but they were always the wrong dates, total loosers. So my learning director said that I need to meet his BIL....however he was away in Kansas at school. So I never thought anything about it, I said if he ever comes to town, I would. Well, another time we were talking and once again he brought up his BIL...and then gave a strange look and said, but he is in Italy working on his last project for his Senior year. But this Christmas he is supposed to be in the area. (well this was January) So, once again, I said OK...keep me in mind.
Well in 2001, christmas time was coming, and I got a phone call saying ok, we want you to come to our house on the 21st to go out with my BIL. I agreed....probably was not the best weekend, as I had just bought a house, and that was the day I was moving, but my parents agreed that it would be ok.
So I left....it was amazing...we went bowling and to coffee and walking around this town, which looks like a very old town. We had a blast. It was as though we had known eachother forever. I didn't want to leave his side, it was easy to talk Rich, and it was great to know that he and I had many of the same ideals/morals of life.
Well....I finally got home, and my dad was so mad that I was gone, he wouldn't talkt o me. That was hard, but my mom said there was something different about me after meeting Rich. I knew that too!
Well...Christmas night, I ended up going back out to the house for dinner and games. Once again, I had a blast and did not want to leave his side. At 3 in the morning, after everyone else was in bed and Rich needed to go to bed as he was leaving for Oregon the next day...we exchanged phone numbers and addresses and I left. Of course after the most magical kiss in the world. At that point I knew that I would marry him!
The next night I went out with my friends, and never even thought he would call for a few more days, but sure enough...I got the call and we talked on the phone for hours. That went on until February, when I invited myself up to house for the weekend...I just knew I had too! Well that blossomed into a wonderful relationship. We would see eachother every 6 weeks or so....and I spent the summer at his house---5 weeks!
AFter 2 years of a long distance relationship, Rich made his way to California at Christmas time, and surprised me with a job interview at a local architecture firm. He go the job and moved down to Ca. in Feb 2003. It was Valentines when he moved. On Feb. 16th...he took me to the coast for the weekend at a B&B.....it was there that he proposed...it was magical once again.....I found my fairy tale. We started planning the wedding, and in July 2004 we got married.
We have found that we are perfect for eachother, and help eachother in every way. We are ready to start our new endeavor by giving birth to these beautiful babies!
You never know what a blind date will bring!
Friday, July 27, 2007
TIME
I woke up this morning, and realized that time is going by fast...I have 6 weeks and 1 day until the girls will be here....is anything ready? Absolutely not!
I am getting slightly stressed out....the crib is not up, I only have 1 set of bedding, none of the clothes are washed, and I my baby shower is not until I am 34 weeks along....can we say cutting it close?
R. is being supportive, and I always feel so bad that I have to go to him to clean up, or vaccuum or dust, or wash clothes...but he works long hours, and needs to unwind as well....I know once they get here, things will be hectic but my goodness...I wish I could do more around the house.
I think what I will do is, make a list of things that I want done, and see if we can X them out as they get done.....
Where has the time gone?
I am getting slightly stressed out....the crib is not up, I only have 1 set of bedding, none of the clothes are washed, and I my baby shower is not until I am 34 weeks along....can we say cutting it close?
R. is being supportive, and I always feel so bad that I have to go to him to clean up, or vaccuum or dust, or wash clothes...but he works long hours, and needs to unwind as well....I know once they get here, things will be hectic but my goodness...I wish I could do more around the house.
I think what I will do is, make a list of things that I want done, and see if we can X them out as they get done.....
Where has the time gone?
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
update on the twins!
Today was the 30 week check up. One girl is now head down and the other is head up, which is ok since I will be having a C-section. Hannah is head down, she is 3 pounds 4 ounces and gaining like the wind. She is measuring 29 weeks 6 days, and doing all her practice breathing. So that is a relief.
Megan is breech. She is actually sitting on Hannah's head....silly girl! She weighs 3 punds 7 ounces, and is measuring 30 weeks 2 days. They have been 3 days apart since the beginning of the pregnancy.
I have a tentative week of delivery, which will be either September 11 or 12....so 7 weeks and counting!!!
Megan is breech. She is actually sitting on Hannah's head....silly girl! She weighs 3 punds 7 ounces, and is measuring 30 weeks 2 days. They have been 3 days apart since the beginning of the pregnancy.
I have a tentative week of delivery, which will be either September 11 or 12....so 7 weeks and counting!!!
Monday, July 23, 2007
Thirty Weeks
This is unbelievable to me...thirty weeks and a healthy pregnancy...too bad I couldn't enjoy it more than I did. I have been a nervous wreck through out this pregnancy even when I could feel both girls moving about and going crazy.... We are now on the countdown to the end. Six or Seven weeks remain, and then they will be here. It is so exciting, but at the same time, I am nervous. I question myself on being a mom. Yes, I worked in daycare for many years and continue to work with kids in a classroom....but I still have reservations about my decisions. I guess I will sit down on this rollercoaster and hold on tight.
I am experiencing many discomforts...along with insomnia. As I sit here yawning and wondering why I can't seem to sleep in bed....I miss my bed.....can't wait until I can move back in to the room. The recliner/couch has been a great friend, but I am ready for my bed.
My other didcomfort is.....heartburn....I take prilosec and eat tums like candy, and yet still suffer....ugh!
I try not to complain, but at times, need to get it off my chest! My next post will be upbeat, as tomorrow is my 30 week check up and ultrasound, and will have more news to share......
I am experiencing many discomforts...along with insomnia. As I sit here yawning and wondering why I can't seem to sleep in bed....I miss my bed.....can't wait until I can move back in to the room. The recliner/couch has been a great friend, but I am ready for my bed.
My other didcomfort is.....heartburn....I take prilosec and eat tums like candy, and yet still suffer....ugh!
I try not to complain, but at times, need to get it off my chest! My next post will be upbeat, as tomorrow is my 30 week check up and ultrasound, and will have more news to share......
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Looking back
It is always amazing to me, when you stop and look back on your life how you have changed or grown in some way or another.
As we are quickly approaching August, I remember 1 year ago when I had a miscarriage.....I thought my world was ending, the thought of losing a life was devastating to me. I blamed myself in every way possible....I thought my trip to New York was the problem....then I thought, I wasn't eating properly, then I thought that my body just rejects a new life growing inside.
My life was many shades of gray for months....I finally went to my church to ask for prayer and guidance. I spoke with the pastor who married R. and I and he was very insightful. He shed a new light on me....he said that God provides for you life in ways unexpected. God wanted you to be a mom...therefore he granted you the chance the get pg. God also wanted that baby to be with him. That baby was not ready for life on earth, and needed to stay in his house, happy and eternally young. You will always have an angel to watch over you, and keep you safe. God will not provide you with anything that you can not handle...and that baby he knew was not going to do well in the human world.
It took some pondering on his words, and then it began to give me comfort, knowing that there is an angel looking over me, and when my time is done on this great earth, my angel will be waiting for me with his arms wide open.
As I continue to look at my experiences and thoughts, I realize that as traumatic and awful of an experience the miscarriage was, I learned a lot about myself, and I was able to grow a stronger relationship with my husband. I realized that had I not experienced that, I would not have realized that I am emotionally strong, and able to share my story with others.
I have a built confidence that no matter what life brings my way, I will be able to work through it.
A few years ago....I don't think I could have, but now I know I can. I can thank those close to me for all the support and love that they shared with me....but most of all I thank myself, for opening my eyes and looking inside to see what matters to me, for realizing that I matter and make differences in my life through everything I do.
As we are quickly approaching August, I remember 1 year ago when I had a miscarriage.....I thought my world was ending, the thought of losing a life was devastating to me. I blamed myself in every way possible....I thought my trip to New York was the problem....then I thought, I wasn't eating properly, then I thought that my body just rejects a new life growing inside.
My life was many shades of gray for months....I finally went to my church to ask for prayer and guidance. I spoke with the pastor who married R. and I and he was very insightful. He shed a new light on me....he said that God provides for you life in ways unexpected. God wanted you to be a mom...therefore he granted you the chance the get pg. God also wanted that baby to be with him. That baby was not ready for life on earth, and needed to stay in his house, happy and eternally young. You will always have an angel to watch over you, and keep you safe. God will not provide you with anything that you can not handle...and that baby he knew was not going to do well in the human world.
It took some pondering on his words, and then it began to give me comfort, knowing that there is an angel looking over me, and when my time is done on this great earth, my angel will be waiting for me with his arms wide open.
As I continue to look at my experiences and thoughts, I realize that as traumatic and awful of an experience the miscarriage was, I learned a lot about myself, and I was able to grow a stronger relationship with my husband. I realized that had I not experienced that, I would not have realized that I am emotionally strong, and able to share my story with others.
I have a built confidence that no matter what life brings my way, I will be able to work through it.
A few years ago....I don't think I could have, but now I know I can. I can thank those close to me for all the support and love that they shared with me....but most of all I thank myself, for opening my eyes and looking inside to see what matters to me, for realizing that I matter and make differences in my life through everything I do.
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Friends
Friendship is a touchy subject with people. Some believe, for a person to be considered a friend, you must be able to see them or hang out with them in a local shop or restaurant. They feel that if you don't then they are just a name, or a person that has no meaning to you.
Life is funny, and God will provide a friendship in a way that has never been thought of. Impractical or even surreal....I have found that going online has been a great source of friendship. Going through a loss of a baby, and losing a child brings women and husbands and wives together in ways, that nobody ever thought could happen.
I belong to a chat group where we are all in different stages of trying to conceive, pregnant or suffering from a multitude of losses, and yet....I find that I call them "friends."
These are women who understand my feelings, offer advice, and just make me smile when I feel down. They are always there with a shout out, a smiling face, or in need of a hug themselves.....It is funny how nearly a year has gone by and I have many friends across the country....that I know if travelling I could call and meet up for lunch, coffee or just to hang out. I may or may not ever meet these women in real life, but for now, I cherish the friendship that has come out of it....I cherish the minutes a day, that I can worry and get some moral support. for that I am thankful...and I know that I will have a lifetime of friends to turn to.....
Life is funny, and God will provide a friendship in a way that has never been thought of. Impractical or even surreal....I have found that going online has been a great source of friendship. Going through a loss of a baby, and losing a child brings women and husbands and wives together in ways, that nobody ever thought could happen.
I belong to a chat group where we are all in different stages of trying to conceive, pregnant or suffering from a multitude of losses, and yet....I find that I call them "friends."
These are women who understand my feelings, offer advice, and just make me smile when I feel down. They are always there with a shout out, a smiling face, or in need of a hug themselves.....It is funny how nearly a year has gone by and I have many friends across the country....that I know if travelling I could call and meet up for lunch, coffee or just to hang out. I may or may not ever meet these women in real life, but for now, I cherish the friendship that has come out of it....I cherish the minutes a day, that I can worry and get some moral support. for that I am thankful...and I know that I will have a lifetime of friends to turn to.....
Monday, July 16, 2007
Moanday once again!
Why is it that everyone looks forward to Friday, for only another Moanday to make her presence and put a damper on a brand new day?
Being on bedrest, I love the weekends when I can spend time with Rich....but then Monday has to show up so quickly....and that time is over for 5 full days. I want to propose a 3 day weekend and a 4 day workday....wouldn't that be great? I want either Monday's or Wednesday's off...since Wednesdays seem to drag on forever!!!
Anyways-
Today, I am tired...didn't sleep well last night for some reason. I think it is the reflux that I am experiencing with this pg.
In other news....Donald Trump just bought land here in the fresNO....to build a PGA golf course that got started last year, but ran out of money. Now Trump is the only man whom I feel will get the project done...the problem???? LOCATION!!!! The golf course is getting built in the worst area of town....lots of drugs and prostitutes...it will be interesting to see what happens in the coming weeks.
Being on bedrest, I love the weekends when I can spend time with Rich....but then Monday has to show up so quickly....and that time is over for 5 full days. I want to propose a 3 day weekend and a 4 day workday....wouldn't that be great? I want either Monday's or Wednesday's off...since Wednesdays seem to drag on forever!!!
Anyways-
Today, I am tired...didn't sleep well last night for some reason. I think it is the reflux that I am experiencing with this pg.
In other news....Donald Trump just bought land here in the fresNO....to build a PGA golf course that got started last year, but ran out of money. Now Trump is the only man whom I feel will get the project done...the problem???? LOCATION!!!! The golf course is getting built in the worst area of town....lots of drugs and prostitutes...it will be interesting to see what happens in the coming weeks.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Random Thoughts
Yesterday was a rough day for me....everytime I stood up I felt dizzy...it was so weird, I called the dr. and she said that it was pretty normal especially when the twins are going through a growth spurt and I can't seem to get enough to eat....like today.
I did go to the movies....I saw the move Evening....it was so good....but deep. I knew it was going to be emotional but didn't think I would cry through the 2nd half. I would recommend to anyone who has a bosom friend, and mom who you think the world of....and believe in love. Just take tissue with you!
Also, I think in a former life...I was a chef...I enjoy cooking so much and Rachel Ray is one of my favs....I tried a new recipe tonight....it was Turkey Cutlet Parmesean with tomato, basil and fresh mozzerella topping...YUMM-O is all I can say.....can't wait for lunch time tomorrow to finish it off!
Well....I'll be back tomorrow.....
I did go to the movies....I saw the move Evening....it was so good....but deep. I knew it was going to be emotional but didn't think I would cry through the 2nd half. I would recommend to anyone who has a bosom friend, and mom who you think the world of....and believe in love. Just take tissue with you!
Also, I think in a former life...I was a chef...I enjoy cooking so much and Rachel Ray is one of my favs....I tried a new recipe tonight....it was Turkey Cutlet Parmesean with tomato, basil and fresh mozzerella topping...YUMM-O is all I can say.....can't wait for lunch time tomorrow to finish it off!
Well....I'll be back tomorrow.....
Thursday, July 12, 2007
This was too fun! Thanks pinkmorning for the idea!
ME in One Word1. Where is your cell phone? on my table2. Relationship? married3. Your hair? needs color badly4. Work? teacher5. Your sister? getting closer now that I am pregnant6. Your favorite thing? hubby7. Your dream last night? I can't remember?. Your favorite drink? icedtea sweetend9. Your dream car? 1965 mustang10. The room you’re in? living room11. Your shoes? shoes don't fit my feet right now12. Your fears? loosing a child13. What do you want to be in 10 years? world's best mom14. Who did you hang out with this weekend? my wonderful hubby15. What are you not good at? writing all my feelings down without sounding childish16. Muffin? blueberry17. One of your wish list items? to be a stay at home mom, but need to pay the bills one way or another18. Where you grew up? Arvada Co.19. Last thing you did? took a 3 hour nap20. What are you wearing? my pj's21. What aren’t you wearing? jewelry and shoes22. Your pet? kitties23. Your computer? Dell laptop24. Your life? wonderful, full of surprises25. Your mood? happy and content26. Missing? friends27. What are you thinking about right now? my upcoming surgery28. Your car? Honda CRV29. Your kitchen? a little small30. Your summer? uncofortably hot!!!31. Your favorite color? Green32. Last time you laughed? this morning with a tv show33. Last time you cried? I can't remember....very emotional right now34. School? would love to go back and get my masters. Love? Richard. Name? Stephanie (I added this, i realized a few may not even know my name :))
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Anniversary
Yesterdaywas our 3rd anniversary. We has so much fun! We went on a date to the movies and dinner. We saw the movie Ratatouille. It was so cute! It was a movie that taught life lessons rather than giving you tons of humor.
After the movie we treated ourselves to dinner at Dai Bai Dang....a chinese food restaurant that rocks. Of course from the spice, it made the twins jump around and do the jig...but it sure tasted good.
I feel as though I am the luckiest girl because I have Rich in my life. He is so caring and understanding of me. I still have to pinch myself to make sure that I am not dreaming.
The other day, he came home out of the blue with flowers, just because, and he is taking time to pick up the slack around the house as I can not clean and do to much.
I pray everyday for us and our happiness, and I pray for our daughters. So far so good....I can't wait to meet them!
After the movie we treated ourselves to dinner at Dai Bai Dang....a chinese food restaurant that rocks. Of course from the spice, it made the twins jump around and do the jig...but it sure tasted good.
I feel as though I am the luckiest girl because I have Rich in my life. He is so caring and understanding of me. I still have to pinch myself to make sure that I am not dreaming.
The other day, he came home out of the blue with flowers, just because, and he is taking time to pick up the slack around the house as I can not clean and do to much.
I pray everyday for us and our happiness, and I pray for our daughters. So far so good....I can't wait to meet them!
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Getting Started
I have been inspired by acquaintances to get started on blogging. They always have great stories and pictures to share....as my life is getting ready to change in the upcoming weeks, I thought I would find a way to share my feelings and thoughts with my friends.
Today is my 3rd Anniversary. Yes, three wonderful years have gone by and quickly at that. It is hard to imagine how quickly time does go by. These three years have been so great. We have travelled...laughed...lost....and getting ready to gain two wonderful daughters.
Twins.....amazing how God works in your life. He truly provides in a way that blows your mind. After my miscarriage, I felt that I was lost and was a failure to be a mom, then six months later, we are blessed with two girls on their way. I am emotionally stable at this point in time...but know that there is going to be a crazy loops on the rollercoaster of life. I will have to sit back, hold on, and prepare for the challenges and rewards that being a parent and partnership with my husband will be.
Today is my 3rd Anniversary. Yes, three wonderful years have gone by and quickly at that. It is hard to imagine how quickly time does go by. These three years have been so great. We have travelled...laughed...lost....and getting ready to gain two wonderful daughters.
Twins.....amazing how God works in your life. He truly provides in a way that blows your mind. After my miscarriage, I felt that I was lost and was a failure to be a mom, then six months later, we are blessed with two girls on their way. I am emotionally stable at this point in time...but know that there is going to be a crazy loops on the rollercoaster of life. I will have to sit back, hold on, and prepare for the challenges and rewards that being a parent and partnership with my husband will be.
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